Talking With Ally.

To the person who's birthday is on the 26th December, this is the letter that will not be sent to you. I wrote to you many letters before although I'm not even sure if you even read them before I officially stopped sending. I remember receiving one letter from you which got me confused and a bit dumbfounded for a moment that it made me happy truly. Because I know you're not the type to do that. Anyhow, this letter won't be given to you. Due to me wanting peace and not get stuck up with you anymore.  I think it's disgusting. How my birthday is at the first month of the year and yours is at the end of the year. I started the new year with you and ending it with you and it's disgusting. I don't want to tie you with me anymore, the more I see it, I think that you're just another human being. And our meeting really was nothing and it didn't impact me that much. The only thing that did impact me was how I told you I don't like being attached t...

I think my whole life I have always been alone most of the time and never viewed it bad before. I thought it was something familiar and the right thing to do. I never wanted human interactions or the urge to feel myself full with the presence of someone else. For my life has been filled with people most of the time and I don't feel the loneliness nor do I feel like reaching out to someone is needed. But as I go by into my 20s, I realized how much I wanted to feel just full. I am lonely. I never feel this lonely in my life and I don't even know how to fill it. I'm very lonely and I don't know what to do with it.