Talking With Ally.

You know how some things you read in a book and thought " wow that's fun " and think what if that happen in your real life instead? Yea I used to think of that when I was 13 and reading Cecelia Ahern's "Where The Rainbow Ends" while imagining if I was Rosie, I would told my bestfriend how I feel sooner than she is. But now that I'm 22 and going through things that she's going through, I have 0 confident on what to do and what is right.  It's so easier to dodge the problem and not think of your feelings than to admit how you feel about someone doesn't it? Hence I do understand why both Rosie and Alex tried to run away from it. Okay let's break it down first before we explore about I guess, how I feel about certain things.  Me and Aiman have known each other for so long. Probably 15 years now since we knew each other since we were 7 though our introduction to each other is a funny story ㅡ I never thought we would be long runtime f...

I am stupid. I knew better than to get into a man's car and let him treat you nice. The face of him just smiling is making me sick. I thought I was fine. I was ranting, being mad, being able to comprehend what he did but did I do that just to confirm that it was fine? And it wasn't that much of a bad thing. It was normal. He knows what type of person I am yet he did what he did. God I just don't want to remember his face. It's just disgusting. I was terrified. I am terrified. And surprised that, that happened to me. I just want to cry so badly about it but I'm feeling more numb-er huh. Life just sucks, it really does. And I just really don't want to do romance now.