Void.

I think my whole life I have always been alone most of the time and never viewed it bad before. I thought it was something familiar and the right thing to do. I never wanted human interactions or the urge to feel myself full with the presence of someone else. For my life has been filled with people most of the time and I don't feel the loneliness nor do I feel like reaching out to someone is needed.

But as I go by into my 20s, I realized how much I wanted to feel just full. I am lonely. I never feel this lonely in my life and I don't even know how to fill it. I'm very lonely and I don't know what to do with it.